Well, I had to go backwards and will start over again next week. See what happened was, I had to travel to the boonies this weekend, and in this particular area all restaurants were closed early and we had to depend on the Hampton to feed us. Well, so, there were meatballs, crackers, carrots, chicken noodle soup and beef noodle soup. Yikes! You know meatballs has bread and I was starving, so needless to say, I was desparate and just thought of Neem Karoli Baba who always said, "You eat what is available."
So, I wanted to talk about my trip, it was at Zen Mountain this past weekend. I went to a Zen Ritual for Abbot Steve Clark where we scattered his ashes to the wind on top of a mountain.
Steve was one of my best friends, we would spend days upon days and hours upon hours in Satsang, spiritual talk, for years. Until I quit my job and went to school full-time and then at some point I got pregnant and then he grew very sick and then died this year.
It's interesting about Steve, the one conversation that stood out the most about Steve was his want and desire to serve. He came into my editing bay one time and he sat in the chair and slumped over and sighs, and I asked, "What's wrong man?" He says to me, "Tiner, all I want to do is serve." He said this out of frustration in trying to connect with our co-workers. Now, to me that's like pulling teeth really, but he really wanted to reach out to them and connect with them and help them. But, they wanted no part, of course. But, this is what this man wanted to do, he wanted to help people. Now-a-days you try to help people and people think it's a con. But, this man was all about the alleviation of suffering. Since I knew him, he was all about the alleviation of suffering. Not just his own, as he has suffered for some time. He had hypothyroidism, rheumatoid arthritis when we working together and I would hear him whence and scream on occasions when he would make the simplest of moves. So, I often would suggest things to help him through that, so he played with tai chi for a while then he found the Cincinnati Zen Center.
He hooked up the Cincinnati Zen Center and became close with that group. Which is wonderful news, because he needed it so much. He was challenged to work through his anger and his pain. So, he would sit still through those bouts of anger and hurt forced upon him by his unsympathetic co workers. He would sit his mind became clear, his intentions became clear. And I know, because I was constantly trying to get him out of that job because I know how those people worked and they would suck the life out of you. But, he assured me that the Zen helped him through it. It's amazing what meditation can do. He's been pulling me closer to Zen Meditation, but you know how it is, full time mom, kid latch to you every moment of the day.
Anyways, he became the Abbot for the NKY Zen Center and became close with the group and helped so many people, I am truly, truly happy he got to do what he wanted to do which was to serve.
So as for the diet! After the ritual there was mostly meat, potatoes, lots of breads. So, it was a "person who could potentially have celiac disease" nightmare. The good news, despite the fact that I am still fairly fatigued, I managed to keep of 7 of the pounds I have lost. That's good news! The bad news is, I am pretty tired. I feel the fatigue in my body. Where last Friday, Saturday and Sunday I felt fantastic, by Tuesday I felt horrible. It took a few days for that bad diet to catch up for me. So, I know, for sure, that I must live a gluten free life. Plus, pack my own foods!
So, I wanted to talk about my trip, it was at Zen Mountain this past weekend. I went to a Zen Ritual for Abbot Steve Clark where we scattered his ashes to the wind on top of a mountain.
Steve was one of my best friends, we would spend days upon days and hours upon hours in Satsang, spiritual talk, for years. Until I quit my job and went to school full-time and then at some point I got pregnant and then he grew very sick and then died this year. It's interesting about Steve, the one conversation that stood out the most about Steve was his want and desire to serve. He came into my editing bay one time and he sat in the chair and slumped over and sighs, and I asked, "What's wrong man?" He says to me, "Tiner, all I want to do is serve." He said this out of frustration in trying to connect with our co-workers. Now, to me that's like pulling teeth really, but he really wanted to reach out to them and connect with them and help them. But, they wanted no part, of course. But, this is what this man wanted to do, he wanted to help people. Now-a-days you try to help people and people think it's a con. But, this man was all about the alleviation of suffering. Since I knew him, he was all about the alleviation of suffering. Not just his own, as he has suffered for some time. He had hypothyroidism, rheumatoid arthritis when we working together and I would hear him whence and scream on occasions when he would make the simplest of moves. So, I often would suggest things to help him through that, so he played with tai chi for a while then he found the Cincinnati Zen Center.
He hooked up the Cincinnati Zen Center and became close with that group. Which is wonderful news, because he needed it so much. He was challenged to work through his anger and his pain. So, he would sit still through those bouts of anger and hurt forced upon him by his unsympathetic co workers. He would sit his mind became clear, his intentions became clear. And I know, because I was constantly trying to get him out of that job because I know how those people worked and they would suck the life out of you. But, he assured me that the Zen helped him through it. It's amazing what meditation can do. He's been pulling me closer to Zen Meditation, but you know how it is, full time mom, kid latch to you every moment of the day.Anyways, he became the Abbot for the NKY Zen Center and became close with the group and helped so many people, I am truly, truly happy he got to do what he wanted to do which was to serve.
So as for the diet! After the ritual there was mostly meat, potatoes, lots of breads. So, it was a "person who could potentially have celiac disease" nightmare. The good news, despite the fact that I am still fairly fatigued, I managed to keep of 7 of the pounds I have lost. That's good news! The bad news is, I am pretty tired. I feel the fatigue in my body. Where last Friday, Saturday and Sunday I felt fantastic, by Tuesday I felt horrible. It took a few days for that bad diet to catch up for me. So, I know, for sure, that I must live a gluten free life. Plus, pack my own foods!
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